Tuesday, December 11, 2012

7 Months Old!!!

Carson David, you are 7 months old already. Time is just flying by with you. You are more and more fun everyday.

We didn’t have a well baby this month, but you weigh roughly 18.5 lbs. and are about 27.5 inches long. You’re nice and solid still. J

You are learning and growing and changing. You love to laugh and smile, and babble and jabber all the time. Everything is ah da da ba ba goo, and it’s so adorable.

You are still loving your baby good. However, I think we have discovered an intolerance to oatmeal. Hopefully it just stays an intolerance, since there hasn’t been any hives, just vomiting. L We are hoping for no wheat allergies.

You are starting to show interest in what Mom and Dad are eating. You are also starting to get the hang of the sippy cup. I give you a little bit of water in it with your baby food.

You have started to put the bottle/cup in your mouth by yourself, but you aren’t able to figure out you need to tip it to get the good stuff to come out.


At 7 months old, you can/are:


-wearing size 3 diapers

-wearing mostly 9 month clothes, although a few 6-9 month still fit, and a few 12 month still fit, and you are starting to grow out of 9 month pants.

-eating 6 ounces per bottle, sometimes a little more. Also eating 1.5 to 2 containers of stage 2 baby food a day.

-sleeps through the night most of the time, but sometimes wakes up once or twice and wants his paci

--can sit up unsupported for a few minutes at a time, but we are always close by. He’s working right now on pulling himself up, when he’s laying down, but so far hasn’t been successful.

-when on his tummy, he acts like he’s swimming. So far, no tucking under of his legs or trying to crawl.

-He still loves to be held and snuggled, and would be content to do that most of the day.

-LOVES his jumperoo and would stay in it all the time if we let him.

-HAS 2 TEETH!!!  They erupted a couple weeks ago and now are almost fully through. The two bottom ones in the front. He drools and wants to chew on things ALL THE TIME so I’m sure we’re not far away from more.

-Rolls from back to tummy multiple times daily, but still doesn’t want to go back the other way. Instead he just gets mad until you roll him back over.


Carson, I love you so much! Thanks for making each day a little bit brighter

Sunday, October 28, 2012

Half a year...

Dear Carson,


I can’t believe you are 6 months old today. You have brought so much light and love into my life these past 6 months…I am so blessed to have you.
I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. The first time I saw you I wasn’t able to hold you because of having a c-section, but you looked at me like you knew who I was. The first time I got to hold you, you snuggled right in…it was a perfect fit. We were meant for each other, and it felt like you had been waiting to meet me as long as I had been waiting to meet you.
We have learned a lot about each other over the months, and you have grown and changed so much. You looked just like your Daddy when you were born, but now you look just like me. You laugh and smile at me, you love to play peek-a-boo, and you are so squirmy and wiggly. Luckily, you do still love to snuggle, because cuddle time with you is my favorite thing.
I love dressing you up in cute outfits, the more boyish the better. Clothes shopping for you is even more fun than shopping for myself!
I’m amazed how you learn and grow each and every day. You have changed my life in so many ways, and I wouldn’t change it for the world.
You, little boy, have my whole heart. I would do anything for you, and I love you more than anything in the whole world.

At six months old, Carson can/is:
-wearing some 6 month clothes, but mostly 9 month, he needs the length
-wearing size 3 diaper
-eating 6 oz. bottles 5 or 6 times a day, and one serving of baby food at night. He has tried and loved squash, carrots, peas, sweet potatoes, peaches, pears, apples, and bananas. He hates rice cereal. We are going to try some oatmeal and see how that works out.
-sleeps through the night most of the time when he doesn’t have an ear infection. 
-laughs, giggles, coos, and goos, and is starting to make more consonant sounds.
-can almost sit up unsupported, but not quite.
-rolls from back to tummy frequently.
-loves to play peek-a-boo, he puts the blanket over his head and then pulls it off
-loves to be startled, he thinks it’s hilarious
-loves to splash in the bathtub
-he was at the dr. October 15 for his second double ear infection, and weighed 18 lbs. 4 oz. We will get his 6 month stats when he goes in a week or two
-he can sit in his Bumbo and hold his head up for a while now
-like the exersaucer now that his little legs almost reach the bottom
-puts anything and everything in to his mouth. And drools like a faucet, although no teeth have popped through yet.

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

5 Months Old!

Carson turned 5 months old on September 28. And for once, he wasn’t sick to celebrate his monthly birthday, hallelujah!

Carson rolled over from back to tummy for the first time this month. He’s only done it once, but he spends a lot of time laying on his side getting very close to doing it. I think he’s just being lazy. J

We started solids this month, and we started with rice cereal, but he wasn’t too interested in that. So we tried a little bit of baby food, and he loves it. He is really enjoying it, and he gets it most nights. So far we have tried peas, bananas, peaches, pears, and sweet potatoes. He didn’t seem to be a big fan of the peaches, but loves the rest. About a half hour or so after eating them he is WILD for a little while, the carbs and sugar must get to him.

Carson also seems to be enjoying bath time more…he’s discovered how fun it is to splash. Sometimes he splashes with his arms and legs, and sometimes just his arms. It’s super cute.

No shots or doctor’s appointments this month. I got on the scale with him October 8, and he weighs roughly 18 pounds. He’s so solid!

He has stopped sleeping through the night most of the time, which is unfortunate. With being sick and getting shots, and then us being gone and out a lot lately, his routine is messed  up, and like his Mama, he LOVES his routine. Aunt Meghan and Uncle Jason got married on October 6, so now that those festivities are over, things should get back to normal and hopefully he will start sleeping through the night again.

I just spent yesterday cleaning out his drawers and putting away stuff that no longer fits him. I have a huge tote of clothes that are too small. It breaks this mama’s heart a little bit that her little boy is growing up sooooo fast.

Here are some Carson statistics…

- Wears mostly 6 months clothes. There are some 9 month clothes that fit him great right now, and a few 3-6 month things that still fit. It really depends on the brand!

-wears size 3 diapers. 2’s still fit, but the 3’s are a bit roomier for his squishy thighs. J

-eats 6 oz bottles, 5 or 6 times a day, with one small feeding of baby food at night.

-kicks and spins himself around when laying on his back on the floor

-laughs, smiles, coos, babbles, and gurgles at us

-recognizes faces

-makes eye contact

-lets you know when he likes or dislikes something

-holds his head up really well, and for longer periods of time

-loves his taggie blanket and burp rags to cuddle

-loves to snuggle and be held

-is becoming more mobile

-grabs things on his own, and usually puts them in his mouth

-pulls his paci out and then tries to get it back in, he does this all the time now. He usually tries to stick it in backwards or sideways
-is working on some teeth, though none have surfaced yet. He's a drool monster, and loves to chew on everything. Frozen teething rings seem to provide some relief for him.

-sometimes tries to hold his own bottle

-loves it when we imitate his goos and gaas, and tries to do it back to us. He's been doing more "yelling" too.

-supports himself on his elbows when doing tummy time...he still isn't a huge fan of tummy time, but will tolerate it, especially if Daddy or I lay down with him or we give him tummy time on our bed.

-bears weight on his legs, even though he doesn’t seem to enjoy it too much right now
-has started to whine when he wants to be held or picked up or have some attention. It's cute and annoying at the same time.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

4 months old!!

Carson turned 4 months old on August 28. And just like his 3 month birthday, he was sick. This time I felt the need to take him to the doctor, and I’m glad I did, because he had a double ear infection. Poor baby.

September 5, Carson had his 4 month shots. Shots are just no fun at all. I hate having to hold him down and watch him cry, it’s awful. I know that not having the shots and developing the diseases he is being vaccinated from would be worse, but still, they stink. He got a fever from the shots, but this time I was smart enough to schedule them for late in the day so he could pretty much just crash the rest of the evening, which he did, and slept through the night as well.

He is getting more and more fun every day. He is trying to roll over from back to tummy, but usually just ends up on his side. He also tries to sit up, but his big ol’ melon inhibits that a little bit.

Carson weighed 17 pounds and was 27 inches long at his 4 month check-up. That means he has gained 4.5 pounds and 4 inches since his 2 month check-up. I’ve got a big boy on my hands. J He is in the 71st percentile for his weight, and 51st for his head circumference, I’m not sure about his length. I love every one of those 17 pounds, his chunky drumsticks are to die for.

He is doing great developmentally. He is right where he should be, which is always good to hear. I got the okay to start some rice cereal or baby food if I want to. I need Brent to get the high chair set up so I can let him try and see how he does.

Here are some things that Carson does at 4 months:

-wears size 3-6 and 6 month clothes. He’s still really long in the torso with short legs.

-wears size 2 diapers.

-eats 6 oz bottles, 5 or 6 times a day

-sleeps through the night most of the time

-kicks and spins himself around when laying on his back on the floor

-laughs, smiles, coos, babbles, and gurgles at us

-recognizes faces

-makes eye contact

-lets you know when he likes or dislikes something

-holds his head up really well, and for longer periods of time

-loves his taggie blanket and burp rags to cuddle

-loves to snuggle and be held

-is becoming more mobile

-grabs things on his own, and usually puts them in his mouth

-pulls his paci out and then tries to get it back in

-sometimes tries to hold his own bottle

-loves it when we imitate his goos and gaas, and tries to do it back to us

-supports himself on his elbows when doing tummy time

-bears weight on his legs, even though he doesn’t seem to enjoy it too much right now

Of course, I’m loving him more and more every day. :)
I will get some pictures of Carson over the last month posted soon for your visual enjoyment!

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

August 21

One year ago today, my life changed forever. All of the dreams, wishes, and prayers of the last 3 years had finally come true. When I opened that pregnancy test, I never expected to see two lines, I really didn’t. I had seen so many negative tests over the years, I was so used to only seeing one line, I didn’t believe it when I saw two.

My emotions were crazy that next week, and really, through most of the pregnancy. I was completely overjoyed and absolutely terrified at the same time. I wasn’t terrified about being a mother or having a child, I was so scared of losing the pregnancy, since that happened the last time. I did eventually relax and enjoy most of the pregnancy, but I never did completely get rid of that anxiety.

I had a lot of fun over those next 8 or so months planning for our little monkey. I debated about finding out the sex, how to decorate the nursery, names, and things I would and wouldn’t do.

I loved being pregnant. I loved the milestones….1st trimester, 2nd trimester, ultrasounds, feeling him kick, everything.

And now, I have everything I could have ever wanted. I am finally a mom. I have the most perfect little angel in the whole world, who was so worth all the struggles and tears. I would do anything for that little boy. His smiles melt my heart into a big puddle of Carson. I don’t know how I ever lived without him, or how I could ever live without him now.

He is truly my miracle. I have loved him every minute of this last year, even before I knew him. From the moment those two lines showed up, I was done for.

Someone told me once that children choose their parents. They come down from Heaven at just the right time to meet their moms and dads and become a family. There might have been other babies that thought about choosing us, but Carson was meant for us.

Sunday, August 5, 2012

3 Months!!

My little Carson bug was 3 months old on July 28th. He spent his 3 month birthday with his first cold and fever, that was no fun. I seriously cried hearing him cough and sniffle for the first time, and all I wanted to do was make it better. We had our first doses of baby Tylenol, and it seemed to help him feel better.
He is the light of our lives. He's getting more and more fun each day, talking and laughing and smiling and just being amazing. He's definitely recognizing mom and dad and has big smiles for us when we get home from work and pick him up from daycare.
At 3 months old, Carson is/can...
--wearing 3 month and some 3/6 month clothes, and a few 0/3 month bottoms with his short little legs.
--wearing size 2 diapers
--eating 6 oz. at a time every 2-4 hours during the day.
--usually sleeps through the night and gets up around 5 or 6 for the day, although the past week with his cold he's been waking up before that to eat, I think his poor throat hurts and he's thirsty. :(
--picking up items and holding them better, and then usually putting them in his mouth.
--smiles all the time!
--blows lots of spit bubbles
--kicks and kicks and kicks those little legs, I always ask him where he's going with them.
--drools all over and is wearing bibs more often.

 Here are some Carson pictures from the last month to enjoy!!

Saturday, July 7, 2012

I Believe...

I beleive

I believe-
That we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change.

I believe-
That no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a
while and, you must forgive them for that.

I believe-
That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I believe-
That you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

I believe-
That it's taking me a long time to become the person I want to be.

I believe-
That you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them

I believe-
That you can keep going long after you think you can't.

I believe-
That we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I believe-
That either you control your attitude or it controls you.

I believe-
That regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades and there had better be something else to take its place.

I believe-
That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I believe-
That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I believe-
That sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones that offer a hand to help you get back up.

I believe-
That sometimes when I'm angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I believe-
That just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I believe-
That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated.

I believe-
That it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others. Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I believe-
That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

I believe-
That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

I believe-
That just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other, And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do.

I believe-
That you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret. It could change your life forever.

I believe-
That two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

I believe--
That no matter how steep the mountain, the Lord will always climb it with us.

I believe-
That your life can be changed in a matter of hours by people who don't even know you.

I believe-
That even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you - you will find the strength to help.

I believe-
That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I believe-
That even though we don't always understand it, God always has a plan for us and everything happens for a reason.

I believe-
In being silly, laughing and dancing around, and acting like a child just for the heck of it.

I believe-
In never giving up on your dreams. The road you travel may be more difficult than you ever imagined, but someday, your dreams WILL come true.

I believe-
That good things come to those who wait.

I believe-
That the people you care about most in life are the essence of life.
Tell them today how much you love them and what they mean to you.

I believe-
That the best things in life truly are worth waiting for.

So, I want to know. What do YOU believe?

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

2 months old!

My little Carson David turned 2 months old last week on the 28th. He's growing up so fast! He had a good checkup at the doctor, he said he is growing well, and getting very strong. We also had our first experience with shots, which was not so fun. Carson was a trooper and cried while they gave him the shots, but stopped and slept right after. Later at daycare, when Sheena changed his diaper he got fussy and cried for most of the rest of the day, I think his little legs were sore. He alternated between crying and sleeping the rest of the night, it's so hard to watch your child hurt. And the info they give you nowadays says not to give your baby Tylenol unless their fever is over 100, because Tylenol can make the immunizations less effective. We had a hard night, but once he fell asleep, he did good and only woke up once to eat.
At 2 months old, Carson can/is:
Weighs 12 lbs, 13 oz. and was 23 1/2 inches long
--Eating 5 oz. every 2-4 hours during the day, and usually sleeping 8 or 9 until 4 or 5, though sometimes he wakes up at 3 to eat.
--Sleeping through the night often! The first night was June 18.
--Rolling over from tummy to back. He's done this 3 or 4 times, the first time was June 23 on his 8 week birthday!
--Wearing size 1 or 1-2 diapers
--Wearing 0-3 bottoms, and mostly 3 month tops, although some 0-3 and some 3-6 fit him.
--Sleeps in his crib swaddled with his arms out
--Cooing, gurgling, and doing lots of talking
--Smiling and laughing at things and people
--Going longer stretches between eating, yay!
--Loves his play mat, he loves to look at the baby in the mirror
--Loves his paci
--Much more alert, spends hours awake during the day
--Is a good napper
--Loves bath time.
--Occasionally sucking his thumb when he can find it. :)

Monday, June 25, 2012

From the Very Start

I loved you from the very start,
You stole my breath, embraced my heart
Our life together has just begun,
You're part of me my little one
As mother with child, each day I grew
My mind was filled with thoughts of you
I'd daydream of the things we'd share
Like late-night bottles and teddy bears
Like first steps and skinned knees
Like bedtime stories and ABC's
I thought of things you'd want to know
Like how birds fly and flowers grow
I thought of lessons I'd need to share
Like standing tall and playing fair
When I first saw your precious face
I prayed your life be touched with grace
I thanked the angels from above
And promised you unending love
Each night I lay you down to sleep
I gently kiss your head and cheek
I count your little fingers and toes
I memorize your eyes and nose
I linger at your nursery door
Awed each day I love you more
Through misty eyes, I dim the light
I whisper "I Love You" every night
I loved you from the very start
You stole my breath, embraced my heart
As mother and child our journey's begun
My heart's yours forever little one

Thursday, June 21, 2012

23 Things a New Parent Should Know

1. The more time and effort put into decorating a nursery, the more likely that the baby will sleep in your room.

2. Things that don't wake a sleeping newborn: loud noises and bright lights. Things that do wake a sleeping newborn: sitting down to eat dinner.

3. Maybe they'll say it's the eyes. Maybe they'll say it's the mouth. Whatever it is, people will insist on telling you that your newborn looks like you. It's almost never true.

4. You may not want to cut your baby's nails because you are afraid of making him bleed. However, if you don't cut your baby's nails, he will probably scratch himself and, then, he'll bleed. So, why postpone the inevitable?

5. There is no greater thrill than the first time a baby calls out "mama" or "dada," even when it is directed toward the cat.

6. Sleeping a lot and eating a lot are traits highly cherished in babies. Unfortunately, neither are particularly admired in adults.

7. As a new parent, strangers will often approach you to ask, "Is he a good baby?" Surprise them by saying, "No, he's kind of an #$$hole."

8. You will discover that there must have been something very, very tricky about composing a melody for "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star," The ABC's," and "Baa Baa Black Sheep."

9. From the moment you arrive home from the hospital, you will be asked if your baby sleeps through the night. Tell them you don't know. Tell them you spend most nights out clubbing.

10. Make sure you learn all the noises that farm animals make. Even though most people no longer live on farms, the sounds that sheep, pigs and cows make are priority number one when teaching your little one to talk.

11. If he is wearing a nice outfit, it is likely that your baby will poop.

12. If you are wearing a nice outfit, it is likely that your baby will poop.

13. Despite advances in science, no one has figured out how to diagnose a dirty diaper besides sniffing at it or peeking in it. When you're in public, learn to do this discreetly.

14. Never in your wildest dreams (or worst nightmares) did you ever imagine how much you would be talking about poop. Unless you work for a laxative company. If you work for a laxative company, you are probably already talking about poop a lot.

15. Strangers are friendly when you're with with a baby. That said, strangers are even friendlier when you're with a puppy.

16. One of the surprise perks of having a baby? When you're with one, you can talk to yourself out loud and people don't look at you like you're crazy.

17. Everyone tells you to "sleep when the baby's sleeping." It's good advice. But, remember, it's "sleep when the baby's sleeping... unless the baby fell asleep in the car and you're driving."

18. Don't beat yourself up over every little thing. Babies have really low expectations.

19. If you think you might be posting too many pictures on Facebook, you probably are.

20. No matter how much you love your child, naptime is never long enough.

21. When people come to visit in the first weeks after you come home from the hospital, remember they are there to see you and the baby. Remember they don't expect you or your house to look perfect. And remember, if you are talking anywhere near the baby monitor, there's a good chance they can hear you.

22. The secret to being a good parent? There isn't one. Anyone who tells you otherwise is lying.

23. When all else fails, if you can't stop your baby from crying, turn on some music and dance around the living room. Even if the crying doesn't stop, at least you'll enjoy yourself.

Saturday, June 16, 2012

A Poem for my Son

My dear child, you need to know
How much we wanted you
The things we did, the money we spent
To make our dreams come true

We tried and tried by ourselves for awhile
Thinking it would happen soon
Then we went to the doctor and had some tests
And discovered some saddening news

Having you wasn’t going to come easy
We had to give patience a try
We did what they said and prayed every month
And wished on every star in the sky

The days and weeks turned into months
And the months turned into years
We tried many things, to no avail
The end result was just more tears

All the pills, the shots, the ultrasounds
Nothing worked out the way we hoped
We finally decided to stop for a while
We needed some time to cope

Then one fateful day the whole world changed
There were two lines instead of one
You were growing inside at that moment in time
All the crying was finally done

We couldn’t wait to meet you
And see your precious smile
To know that all the tests and tears
Would finally be worthwhile

It was a long 10 months while you grew and grew
But there were so many special things along the way
We heard your heart beating and then felt you kick
Those were some amazing days

And when you were finally ready to make
Your grand entrance into our hearts
It was a long and very difficult time
But then again, it was from the start

When they pulled you out and we heard that first cry
It was the most amazing sound to our ears
After all the time spent wishing and waiting
Our little miracle was finally real

Being a parent is the world’s best gift
If only we could freeze these moments in time
You will never know how much I love you
Sweet little child of mine


Friday, June 15, 2012

Funny Friday

We all do it. We laugh at things we know we shouldn't or things that are wrong, or even things we may be guilty of ourselves. Here's a list of some of the funniest things we know we shouldn't laugh at but do anyway.

1. Ugly Babies

2. People who walk with something heavy in one hand and have to lean really far the other way to balance themselves.

3. When someone turns around and goes back the same way they were coming.

4. Cops riding anything except police cars: Bicycles, Boats, and especially Horses.

5. People who say stupid things but really mean them.

6. Girls that wear belts that have no function and are not even attached to anything.

7. Cats wearing clothes.

8. People who animatedly sing in their car.

9. Fanny packs.

10. Guys who drive with their shirts off.

11. When you tell someone to watch out and they don’t.

12. People who have full protective gear on when they ride a bicycle or roller blade (kneepads and everything).

13. When you catch someone talking to them selves.

14. Stupid car horns.

15. Clowns and mascots. Not because they are funny, but because they are sad. And scary.

16. When someone turns around to say something to the person they are with and find that they aren’t there anymore.

17. Anytime someone runs into something.

18. The plural of “Salami"

So what does everyone else laugh at that they shouldn't?

Before I was a Mom

Before I was a Mom…I made and ate hot meals. I had unstained clothing. I had quiet conversations on the phone.

Before I was a Mom... I slept as late as I wanted and never worried about how late I got into bed. I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

 Before I was a Mom... I didn't worry whether or not plants were poisonous. I never thought about Immunizations.

Before I was a Mom... I had never been puked on, pooped on, spit on, chewed on, peed on or pinched by tiny fingers. I had complete control of my mind, my thoughts, and my body. I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom... I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests or give shots. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin. I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom... I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much. I never knew that I could love someone so much.

Before I was a Mom... I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child. I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important.

Before I was a Mom... I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay. I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment, or the satisfaction of being a Mom. I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom.

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

What Nobody Told Me About Trying to Have a Baby...

I found this from my old blog, and it still rings true today, even though I'm finally a mommy, I just had to share it again for anyone that hasn't had their dreams come true yet.

That unprotected sex doesn't necessarily lead to pregnancy.

That your sex life would start to resemble a science experiment.

That the longer you try to conceive the more pregnant women spring up around you.

That deep down inside, I can be a very jealous person.

That one day you wouldn't mind checking your cervical mucous or cervical position to see if it is your fertile period.

That I would know more about the female reproductive system and menstrual cycle than most of the doctors I go to.

That living your life in 2 week increments would be the norm

That you never knew how much you wanted to see those 2 pink lines......until only one shows up every month

That simply relaxing will NOT get you pregnant. (your dh has to do some work too)

That you have no control over some of the goals you set...

That wishing really hard for something doesn't make it happen, and staring at your chart doesn't make it change!

That a pregnancy doesn't always equal a baby.

That miscarriage is so common.

That I would wish we had started trying to conceive earlier.

That my friends' pregnancies would start to make me sad instead of happy.

That I wasted ALOT of money on Birth control pills!!

That it wouldn't happen the first time you didn't use birth control like we were led to believe in school.

That you wouldn't know how important a baby was to you until it took so long and you realized what you were willing to go through to make it happen.

That my husband is the most wonderful and caring man!

That it is insensitive to ask people when they are having a baby!

Tat women who do get pregnant are so very blessed!

That I could have been rich saving money on condoms, which were obviously unnecessary.

That I would be happy to see abundant cervical fluid and tell my DH about it.

That other people's "good news" of pregnancy makes me sad and when they tell me they have good news, I hope that they just saved a bunch of money on car insurance by switching to Geico.

That medicine and procedures are not a sure fire way to get pregnant but it is a sure fire way to lose money fast.

That had I bought stock in Clearblue Easy I'd have my mansion on St. Pete's Beach in FL by now.

That docs should prescribe Zoloft with Clomid.

That having flo show up makes you cry, no matter who's bathroom you are in.

That it does not get easier, each cycle is harder than the last.

Feeling like you wish your life away in 2 week increments.

That I wouldn't want to hold or see someone's baby because it just hurts way too much.

That a group of "strangers" who I will probably never meet, have now become my "best friends" when it comes to trying to conceive.

That I would splash urine on my face while taking apart an hpt in the hopes there really was a 2nd pink line hiding in it.

That infertility is more common than you think.

That one day all of this will make us stronger.

That there is sometimes darkness (infertility) before the light (a baby).

That no one I know would have any understanding as to how I feel.

That my temper and patience are much shorter than I ever thought.

That infertility is not as rare as I was led to believe.

That I would find it extremely difficult to be happy for other people's pregnancies and I would burst into tears upon hearing their news.

That my faith in God would be tested heavily.

That it could hurt so much to lose your innocence.

That I am very bitter towards unmarried accidental pregnancies, and slightly bitter towards married accidental pregnancies

That there is nothing to aid conception in the water at work, despite what some may say.

That I could spend so much time and money on figuring out what my body is doing (or not doing).

That I should have become a gyno-which I think at this point I know more then some.

That some people just say the wrong things.

That sex would ever become a chore!

That actually having a miscarriage would allow me to understand the loss that others have felt.

That miscarriage would make me want a baby even more than before!

That I would resent someone who has been trying less time than me telling me "I know how you feel..."

That I would become NUMB to the wonderful world around me that I already have.

That I would be so sad, and ashamed.

That I would learn to speak in code

That when aunt flow showed up you would feel broken and dysfunctional.

That your friendships with your real life girlfriends would suffer because they got pregnant after being off the pill for 3 weeks.

That this would be, by far, one of the hardest things you will ever have to go through.

That you HAVE to have sex even though you don't feel like it, but because your Fertility Monitor  says high or peak.

That people would pity you and feel sorry for you.

That I would dream about taking my temperature and be disappointed if I woke up at 3am and it wasn't time yet.

That I would stop fantasizing about having a baby because it stopped making me happy.

That the two little words of "just relax" uttered by everyone I know would infuriate me beyond belief.

That someone would suggest adoption to me in order to get pregnant (because it happened to a friend of theirs) before I had even had any testing done.

That my friends who started trying to conceive 1 around the same time we did would already be pregnant with 2 before we get pregnant with 1.

That the people around me would become more insensitive as time goes on. "It is so hard having a new baby, you just wouldn't understand." or "Be happy you're not tied down."

That I would watch a Baby Story every day... only to cry every day.

That I spent years trying not to get pregnant, and praying for my period. Now I can't seem to lose the witch!

It's good to know I am not alone.

That I would have to listen to people complain about their children as if they were burdens while a child is the one thing in the world I want the most. Also, they sound as if they are trying to talk me out of having kids, like it is the absolute worst thing that could ever happen to me.

That I would yell at commercials on the TV (that "having a baby changes everything" one really gets to me. I can't watch it without snapping "So does not having one.")

That I would have to stop watching Birth Day and A Baby Story (two shows I love) because it just hurts too much.

That sex does NOT ALWAYS equal pregnancy or STD every time

That your body has its own mind.

That you would cry your eyeballs out because Aunt Flo showed up

That you would be jealous when everyone around you gets pregnant.

That you would tell everyone you're not ready for a child when they ask what your waiting for.

Life as you know it will be interrupted for two weeks.

That the broken heart you feel each month that is equal to the pain you feel when you lose a loved one.

That you feel useless as a female

That you will soon be lying through your teeth telling people that you don't want children

That you feel stupid and naive for thinking a pregnancy would occur "when it was supposed to".

That answering questions (and usually lying) about pregnancy or family plans would hurt so bad

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

A Few of Carsons's Favorite Things!

As Carson is growing, we are discovering more and more things that he likes. Here are a few of them in pictures.

Telling stories...
 Sharing the Boppy with Coal...
 His MAM paci...
Bath time...he makes the same funny face every time he gets in but loves relaxing in the warm water.
 New today...sleeping on the Boppy
The Eagles...:)
 Yawning oh so cutely...
 Sleeping with his arms by his face...
 Making funny faces...
 His swing...he falls asleep in it every time.
 Smiling...especially at Daddy.
 His bouncer...
 His play mat...
 His car seat...falls asleep in that, too.

Monday, May 28, 2012

1 month old!

Carson is one month old today. I can't believe how fast he is growing and changing. At his 3 week appointment last week, Dr. Heiar said he was growing well and everything looked perfect. He weighed 9 lbs, 7.8 oz and was 23 inches long. I think he scooted a bit when she was measuring his length though, because I know he's grown, but I don't think he's grown 3 inches in length in 3 weeks of life. :)
We don't have to come back until he is 2 months old, and then we have to have the dreaded shots, which won't be any fun for mommy. It's the week I go back to work, so I will be taking him on my lunch hour, I don't know if I'll be able to go back to work or if I'll be crying too much.:(
At one month old, Carson is:

-Eating 4ish ounces of breastmilk every 2-3 hours during the day, has one stretch of sleeping 4-5 hours at night, and then up to eat again in 3 hours after that.
-Wearing size 1 diapers
-Sleeps in the bassinet in his pack-n-play
-Loves to be swaddled at night
-Enjoys baths more that his umbilical stump fell off on May 16th
-Wearing newborn and 0-3 and 3 month clothes, depending on the brand. He is long through the torso and has short legs, so he needs newborn bottoms and larger tops. He has a drawer full of 3 month pants that are several inches too long for him!
-Smiling occasionally, especially if you kiss all over his face or smile at him
-Enjoying tummy time, and is getting a pretty strong neck
-focusing on faces of people
-Being alert and awake more during the day
-Taking more interest in his play mat and hitting the things that hang down sporadically
-Cooing every once in awhile, it's the cutest thing ever!
-Sticks his fingers ( or fist, or bib, or mom's fingers) in his mouth when he's hungry, or if you hold his face up to your face, he tries to eat your cheeks
-Tooting with the force of a 30 year old man! Seriously, this kid is not a shy pooper.

Here are some pictures of Carson over the last month!

Saturday, May 26, 2012

Carson Carson Carson

My sweet baby boy is 4 weeks old today. I can't believe how fast it is flying by. My maternity leave is half over, and the thought of having to leave him all day to go to work breaks my heart.
Carson and I are getting to know each other pretty well. He's a very mellow baby and really only cries when he's hungry. Sometimes it's an hour after he's last eaten, sometimes, 3, and sometimes at night he can go for 6 or 7 hours. Other times he cries 10 minutes after he's finished a bottle because he's a piglet and isn't satisfied. For the most part, he eats 4 oz. at a time. I think it's all going to his cheeks. :) He weighed 9 lbs, and 7.8oz. at his last appointment.
He LOVES food. He loves to cuddle and snuggle and wants to be held all the time. He loves his pacifier. He loves to be swaddled at night, although he didn't at first, and he does let you know in the morning when he's had enough and wants freedom. He hates being naked. He is indifferent about diaper changes...sometimes he cries, other times he could care less. He loves to smile at his daddy. He loves to be talked to. He loves bath time, after he gets over being naked. He falls asleep in his car seat going for rides or walks. He does great in the car. He hates his crib and sleeps in the bassinet in his pack and play. He hates tummy time on the floor, but likes to hold his head up when he's being burped. Before he cries he scrunches up his face into an adorable pout that melts my heart He has a big head and short, skinny legs. He wears newborn pants and 0-3 month tops, and one piece items are too big for him, he looks like a gangsta. :)
 He's starting to grab on to things...like my heart. :) He definitely has his mama wrapped around his finger.
I knew motherhood would be amazing, that is why I fought so long and hard to get it. But it's even more amazing than I ever imagined it could be.

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Newborn Pictures

Carson got some wonderful photos taken of him when he was 5 days old. We love Yarrow Photography!!
It was so hard to decide what pictures to order. I am so glad we got to capture this special time in our lives. Carson was a champ and slept through the whole session!