August 21

One year ago today, my life changed forever. All of the dreams, wishes, and prayers of the last 3 years had finally come true. When I opened that pregnancy test, I never expected to see two lines, I really didn’t. I had seen so many negative tests over the years, I was so used to only seeing one line, I didn’t believe it when I saw two.

My emotions were crazy that next week, and really, through most of the pregnancy. I was completely overjoyed and absolutely terrified at the same time. I wasn’t terrified about being a mother or having a child, I was so scared of losing the pregnancy, since that happened the last time. I did eventually relax and enjoy most of the pregnancy, but I never did completely get rid of that anxiety.

I had a lot of fun over those next 8 or so months planning for our little monkey. I debated about finding out the sex, how to decorate the nursery, names, and things I would and wouldn’t do.

I loved being pregnant. I loved the milestones….1^st trimester, 2^nd trimester, ultrasounds, feeling him kick, everything.

And now, I have everything I could have ever wanted. I am finally a mom. I have the most perfect little angel in the whole world, who was so worth all the struggles and tears. I would do anything for that little boy. His smiles melt my heart into a big puddle of Carson. I don’t know how I ever lived without him, or how I could ever live without him now.

He is truly my miracle. I have loved him every minute of this last year, even before I knew him. From the moment those two lines showed up, I was done for.

Someone told me once that children choose their parents. They come down from Heaven at just the right time to meet their moms and dads and become a family. There might have been other babies that thought about choosing us, but Carson was meant for us.

3 Months!!

My little Carson bug was 3 months old on July 28th. He spent his 3 month birthday with his first cold and fever, that was no fun. I seriously cried hearing him cough and sniffle for the first time, and all I wanted to do was make it better. We had our first doses of baby Tylenol, and it seemed to help him feel better.
He is the light of our lives. He's getting more and more fun each day, talking and laughing and smiling and just being amazing. He's definitely recognizing mom and dad and has big smiles for us when we get home from work and pick him up from daycare.
At 3 months old, Carson is/can...
--wearing 3 month and some 3/6 month clothes, and a few 0/3 month bottoms with his short little legs.
--wearing size 2 diapers
--eating 6 oz. at a time every 2-4 hours during the day.
--usually sleeps through the night and gets up around 5 or 6 for the day, although the past week with his cold he's been waking up before that to eat, I think his poor throat hurts and he's thirsty. :(
--picking up items and holding them better, and then usually putting them in his mouth.
--smiles all the time!
--blows lots of spit bubbles
--kicks and kicks and kicks those little legs, I always ask him where he's going with them.
--drools all over and is wearing bibs more often.

 Here are some Carson pictures from the last month to enjoy!!